My 21st birthday finally arrived and I'm not sure that I can fully explain how I feel about it. I don't like to make it a huge deal, but I definitely want the year to be different. I have a lot of habits that I'd like to break and a lot of new experiences I'd like to embark on. Here's 21 things that came to mind!
What I Want To Change
I would like to cut fast food out of my diet and have very minimal sugar intake. When it comes to food, I'm weak. I LOVE food, regardless of my intolerances to most of it. However, I have let my eating get out of control and it has caused me to gain a lot of weight in the last year. It has also made me really sick. I don't want to feel sick anymore and I want to be healthy and strong, as well.
I want to keep working out and stop giving up when it gets hard or it hurts. I started working out on April 2nd and I would definitely say I'm seeing results, but I'm not quite where I want to be yet. I know that when you have a 20 year habit you're trying to kick, it's going to take a while to undo it. I'm taking it slow with cutting things out and trying not to get discouraged when I fall off the food wagon. It's inevitable that I'm going to have a cheat meal, but I have to pick myself back up and start over. I've cut back on coffee, believe it or not, and limit myself to 40oz at night and use only almond milk for creamer. It's a start!
I want to have a better handle of my finances this year. I am already on my way there, but have a long way to go! I have been paying off some debts and starting over. It's not something I'm proud of and my credit report is going to be on the rocks for a long time, but my goal this year is to start saving my money instead of spending it on everything. I do fail at times, but I want to work on that and not use it as a crutch for sadness or stress.
I want to start spending more time with family. I wasted so many years fighting with my parents over stupid crap. If I hadn't of been so stubborn, I would probably have a better relationship with them. I finally feel like I have a better relationship with them because I'm sharing more of my life with them. I'm not always trying to conceal everything. I'm actually opening up my life to them and asking for advice. I wish I had learned it a lot earlier, but at least I'm learning it now. That's all that matters. Starting over is sometimes what it takes.
I want to make my relationship with God better. I have neglected Him for so long, but it feels so good to come back to a Savior who forgives my every sin and never holds it against me. I would not be where I am in life if God hadn't brought me through some painful experiences and heartbreak. Easter Sunday definitely had an impact on me! God is not only there for the pain and sorrow but for the good things in life, too. He has blessed me in so many ways! I can't thank Him enough for giving me all that He has and for helping me grow as a person.
I want to kick my blogging up a notch. I don't write as often as I'd like but I want to schedule it more times per week because I see this as a place that I can write my feelings about certain things. I sometimes will go back to old posts I wrote when I first started writing and it brings back all the memories. I used to write daily back then but I was in high school and didn't have much else going on and now it's something I'd like to pursue more. Writing is my absolute passion. It's something I know I'm good at. It's a precious gift God has given me and I want to use it to the best of my ability.
I want to sing more. I used to sing and play guitar in high school and definitely miss that. I am not one to share that gift with anyone, because I honestly don't like attention. I don't like people looking at me or watching me, so I usually do it in the privacy of my car. I put my earbuds in, tune out the world, and belt out singing. It feels good to do it and I'd like to put myself out there again and upload a video sometime for old times' sake.
Random Facts About Me
Whenever I clean, I listen to "Happy Working Song" from Enchanted. It's cheesy, but I absolutely love it. That song gets me all hyped up to clean. It puts a positive message out there to clean AND be happy about it. Cleaning doesn't have to be a chore. It can be relaxing at times, and music can help make doing those things easier and more enjoyable.
Europe is on my bucket list and I hope that during my 20's I will be able to cross it off my list. A few places in mind are Rome, Spain, Barcelona, London, and Paris. I've only seen pictures of these places and their historical landmarks, but pictures won't do them justice. I want to see them with my own two eyes.
I have a heart for dachshunds, powder blue '65 Mustangs, words of affirmation, hand-written letters, pizza, flowers, late night talks, '70s music, rainy days sitting next to a fire cuddled in blankets, laughing until I cry, coffee of any kind, cuddling, and old scrapbooks.
I like watching movies from my childhood rather than the provocative, raunchy type of movies that are out these days. I love Disney movies even though they are predictable. I watch them because it makes me remember that I lived in a simpler time at one point.
I actually hate Valentine's Day. It's overrated. You have 365 days a year to send flowers, chocolates, hand written notes, and cutesy little things that people do. You don't need a specific day of the year for that and that's how I've always felt. I would rather get flowers spontaneously than on a planned day like Valentine's Day. It speaks volumes to me when you go out of your way to do something like that. I don't like surprises but I do like to get caught off guard with that kind of thing.
I love being spontaneous. I don't ever have a plan for anything, I just like to go out and do it. That can be bad depending on what it is. It's something I hope never changes because there is a balance for both.
I am a very naive and vulnerable person 100% of the time. Again, not sure if that's a good thing all the time.
I listen to Christmas music all year long. I've always been that way. My family gets super upset with me when I have it on in early October, but I just love the feeling of that time of year. Jesus' birth is the most important part of that holiday, but I love buying presents for my family and friends too.
If money was no object, I'd go skydiving. I am not afraid of heights, but falling out of a plane doesn't make it seem any less terrifying.
I never had acne as a teenager, but I have it now. It's a totally new experience for me and not one that I ever thought I would have to encounter.
I have always wanted to write a book, but I don't know what kind it would be.
I love horror and thrillers. I don't like to be scared, but there's something about horror that gets your adrenaline pumping and it makes you want to watch but at the same time look away.
Julie Andrews is a huge inspiration of mine when it comes to singing. Her voice was beautiful in the Sound of Music and no one could do the song "The Sound of Music" justice.
If I could travel back in time, I would meet the mom who gave birth to me. I never knew her because she passed when I was a year and a half old. I've heard such great things about her. I would love to know her the way everyone else did.
There you have it! 21 things for my 21 years. I hope you enjoyed reading!